God's plan: Bring Michalla home
We weren't really sure what God’s plan was for Michalla until we had a meeting with all of her doctors yesterday afternoon. They basically told us that Michalla’s body and organs are shutting down and they don’t think there is anything more they can do. The plan now (again God’s plan not ours :)) is to minimize Michalla’s pain over the next hours and days until she leaves us. The doctors think she might be with us for another couple days, however she could pass at any time.
Yesterday her family was able to sit around her bed and spend time with her, share stories and start saying goodbye. Michalla was calm and was able to interact and say I love you and even do her best to pose for pictures. She even managed to send a stern glare Clint’s way when he was biting his nails (which she hates) so we know she is still with us :). After the doctor meeting last night we took Cambri and Faith into a room and broke the news to them. Very tough. The branch president came over around 10:30pm and gave Rich, Teri and Clint a blessing. Teri laid on the bed with Michalla all night. She didn't sleep a wink. She held her hand and talked to her and sang to her all night.
So to answer your question “What can I do to help”? Teri is still looking for stories and pictures of Michalla. Please send those to teribeardall@msn.com. Thanks to everyone so much for your outpouring of love and support.
Note: Danny (Step Dad) authored this post
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Michalla touched so many lives on her journey to fight CANCER. We never want to lose a loved one, let alone a child but there's a bigger picture and we don't understand it but it's God's will. He has chosen Michalla, to bring her home, no more suffering, no more pain! What a beautiful Angel heaven is about to receive! I will never forget the few times I got to share with Michalla and Clint, she was so quiet but yet so sweet. Absolutely a beautiful girl, l'm sure of it, she took Clint's breath away. :) My heart goes out to all of you, may God bless you with comfort and peace. We love you Michalla!
ReplyDeleteI don't know Michalla and have never met her or any of your family. I am, however, following the blog posts. I am Lilly's great aunt (or something like that) from marrying into Tiffany Alldredges family so many years ago. So I see the blog posts and read all of them and all I can say is "thank you!" Thank you, Michalla for being a light in an otherwise dark world. I have felt your example and your love for the Savior as I have come to know you only through the posts I read on your moms blog. Bless your heart. I want you to know how much you have touched me without ever meeting me and your example and love has had far reaching effects. I believe that people cross our path in this life for a reason and I'm grateful you have crossed mine in this way, even though I don't know you personally. I can, however, feel your strong spirit. So thank you for that. God's speed, my friend. Maybe you and I will be besties one day, you never know.
ReplyDeleteThere is a grand and glorious purpose to all you're going through, although the path looks all muddled and unclear at this time. My thoughts and prayers are with you, Michalla, as well as your family at this time.
All my Love to you all!
ReplyDeleteOur thoughts and prayers are with you all, our hearts are breaking. Dustin and Whitney Barrington
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful, perfect, daughter you have and the amazing love of a dear, perfect mother by her side! The world didn't have the chance to meet Michalla in person. But because of all the children, lilly for one that michalla has been apart of the rest of us have come to know and love her. What a wonderful world it is where you can truly love someone you haven't even met. Sending, loves, hugs, and prayers for your family, and friends.
ReplyDeleteI've know your sweet Grandma Beardall for years as well as your wonderful parents, although I've only meant you once you have touched my heart you are a choice daughter of God, there is so much goodness that lies ahead for you. My prayer goes to you that you will have peace and comfort from the pain you feel, Thank- You for teaching me so much through your strong sweet spirit Prayers go to all your family and Clint at this time that you above all else will feel of their eternal love and always remember Families will be together Forever, Love Shari Muncy
ReplyDeleteI don't know Michalla as a personal friend, but I remember her from high school. Whenever I saw her in the halls she was always smiling and laughing with her friends She's so pretty (then and now) and she always will be. My prayers are with her family, and with her.
ReplyDeleteI don't know Michalla either, but know Katie Larson and Abby Weese and have seen Michalla in numerous pictures they have posted over the years. My heart is full as I read this blog and just know there are many out there touched by this story and sending love and peace to you all.
ReplyDeleteThis is so hard to understand why……..so I'm choosing to see things this way: The extra time Michalla was given, after the first round in her fight against cancer, was a bonus and a gift from God. He could have easily taken her back then. I'm sure he wanted her home back then. But to help you, and all of Michalla's loved ones and friends, be able to get through loosing her, he gave those who care about her precious moments to make good memories.
ReplyDeleteMichalla proved valiant through her first round, and she had such a burning desire to share her testimony of the gospel with others, that she prepared to go on her mission. Heaven Father knew what an EXCELLENT missionary she was going to be, and he decided he needed her to serve her mission in Heaven. I can't even imagine the glory she'll see and the work she'll be able to do on the other side of the veil.
I'm soooo grateful I got to be even a small part of her journey on earth. I guess she is just too perfect for this world and is needed in Heaven even more than she is needed here.
Love, love, love,
Cindy Garrett :) <3 <3 <3
I am a stranger. I was directed here by another cancer mom and read the entire blog from beginning to current yesterday (in one sitting). I don’t know Michalla personally, but I could feel her spirit as I read her posts. I just want to tell you how incredibly sorry I am for what you, as her family and dear friends, are going through. I will be sending many, many prayers your way. I am so so sorry <3
ReplyDeleteI'm posting this is in behalf of my sister, Pam Curtis. :)
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It was just a little over a year ago that I walked into the U. of U. Hospital and met you. You were bald and you were beautiful. You had sparkly eyes and an infectious smile—that is when I could get you to smile. You did your best not to like me but in a matter of a short time, I won your heart and you won mine. We played games, talked, laughed and it was the first time I had ever seen Duck Dynasty. You made me watch it and now I have an addiction because of you. Michalla, my favorite memory of my time with you is when you made me sing songs with you full well knowing that I stink at singing. But you didn’t care. You made me sing anyway. We laughed and we cried and you told me your secrets and I told you mine. You gave me your cowboy chocolate and it was then and there I knew you and I had become besties. Michalla, I was there the day that you rang the bell to go home. You were full of love and hope. You had a grateful heart and you showed every one of us what it felt like to really live. You made each moment count. This time you are ringing a different bell. You are ringing an eternal bell. You’ll be clasped in the arms of your Heavenly Father. You will be crowned with glory and you will have earned your wings. You are a daughter of a King and the heavens rejoice over you. I will forever be touched and changed because I knew you. Thank you. I heart you. Pammy
To you as a family:
What can I say at a time as tender as this? All I know is that I am grateful that families are forever and that I look up to all of you. I am grateful to say I knew you. You are in my prayers.
Love, Pam Curtis
My heart just aches as I read this blog. My deepest condolences. We know that the lord has a special plan for Michalla. We will pray and fast for your family.
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Mariah, Jocelyn, Stephen Pew
I am so sorry. My little granddaughter said it best when she was just about to go to the other side: "Cancer sucks". Why our young ones have to go through such pain and suffering will hopefully be explained to us some day. In the meantime, they sure leave a big void in our lives. I know that they are doing well in the spirit world but we miss them so very much. Rest assured that we mourn with you. You all have been an example of valor and endurance. May our Heavenly Father bless you with peace.
ReplyDeleteI don't know Michalla, but I do know an old neighbor of yours - who by the way was an old neighbor of ours who converted our family - Alison Bosen - she lead me to your blog and my heart as ached for yours. But in blog searching which I do from time to time - I just hit next blog (don't really understand how the order works but I found this farewell letter that was written that was shared and they said to share. From the past blogs and person Michalla has come to be it sounds similar what she might write if she could -
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by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
If God, for a second, forgot what I have become and granted me a little bit more of life, I would use it to the best of my ability.
I wouldn’t, possibly, say everything that is in my mind, but I would be more thoughtful l of all I say.
I would give merit to things not for what they are worth, but for what they mean to express.
I would sleep little, I would dream more, because I know that for every minute that we close our eyes, we waste 60 seconds of light.
I would walk while others stop; I would awake while others sleep.
If God would give me a little bit more of life, I would dress in a simple manner, I would place myself in front of the sun, leaving not only my body, but my soul naked at its mercy.
To all men, I would say how mistaken they are when they think that they stop falling in love when they grow old, without knowing that they grow old when they stop falling in love.
I would give wings to children, but I would leave it to them to learn how to fly by themselves.
To old people I would say that death doesn’t arrive when they grow old, but with forgetfulness.
I have learned so much with you all, I have learned that everybody wants to live on top of the mountain, without knowing that true happiness is obtained in the journey taken & the form used to reach the top of the hill.
I have learned that when a newborn baby holds, with its little hand, his father’s finger, it has trapped him for the rest of his life.
I have learned that a man has the right and obligation to look down at another man, only when that man needs help to get up from the ground.
Say always what you feel, not what you think. If I knew that today is the last time that that I am going to see you asleep, I would hug you with all my strength and I would pray to the Lord to let me be the guardian angel of your soul.
If I knew that these are the last moments to see you, I would say “I love you.”
There is always tomorrow, and life gives us another opportunity to do things right, but in case I am wrong, and today is all that is left to me, I would love to tell you how much I love you & that I will never forget you.
Tomorrow is never guaranteed to anyone, young or old. Today could be the last time to see your loved ones, which is why you mustn’t wait; do it today, in case tomorrow never arrives. I am sure you will be sorry you wasted the opportunity today to give a smile, a hug, a kiss, and that you were too busy to grant them their last wish.
Keep your loved ones near you; tell them in their ears and to their faces how much you need them and love them. Love them and treat them well; take your time to tell them “I am sorry,” “forgive me, “please,” “thank you,” and all those loving words you know.
Nobody will know you for your secret thought. Ask the Lord for wisdom and strength to express them.
Show your friends and loved ones how important they are to you.
Send this letter to those you love. If you don’t do it today…tomorrow will be like yesterday, and if you never do it, it doesn’t matter either, the moment to do it is now.
Thanks for sharing Michalla with the world! We pray for you family and Michalla that all will be comforted by the spirit of the Lord - to ease her pain and yours. What a strong and amazing girl!
Thanks again - love to you all
Sharynn Moore - Riverton, UT
Dear Michalla's Family,
ReplyDeleteI saw a post about Michalla that Megan Gibson posted on facebook. I didn't know about her before. I just want to extend to you my love and sympathy. My son graduated in 2012 also, showed first symptoms in July, and was diagnosed Oct. 2, 2012. Went to Primary's for 4 rounds of chemo, and was in remission for 3 months before the AML returned, about a year ago today. It was a miserable harsh round, and he finally went home for a break before the scheduled transplant...but as none of us felt good about it, he never did it. Instead we pursued alternative. He had some good days in there, but by October as my son posted in his facebook, "The dog-fight has begun". It was quite a wild and tough ride, but to make a long story short, he passed away January 14, 2014. We're LDS like yourselves. We share the promises of the atonement and temple blessings. I saw the photo from Michalla's graduation. What a beautiful daughter! It is so hard to see them suffer, and deteriorate to the point that they must leave us. Yet, as he left, I knew he was free of all the burden and pain of this nightmare. I miss him, and I know I will not get over it until we are together again. But life continues to roll on, and I look forward to that great day as I savor the life I have with the family here that we still have. You are in my prayers and may I pass on to you a few simple words of comfort someone told my son (Brian) and me when we knew that the end of the road was near, and that is this. It will be all right. God bless.
Please tell Teri that many are weeping with her. Our thoughts, prayers and tears are with you. It's all in God's hands. Someday this will make sense, but not today. Today we will cry and then cry some more. Tell Michalla that heaven is even more beautiful than Lake Powell! We love her for her courage and will see her on the other side.
ReplyDeleteYour guys' faith is amazing! Thank you, and you are in our prayers. (My little brothers pray for you guys every day :)).
ReplyDeleteHello dear family of Michalla. I have never met your sweet daughter or your family, but my heart has been touched so, by following your posts. I too, have lost precious children, two sons, leaving vacancies now in the middle of our family. So my heart and spirit have felt your pain and anguish. Your sweet daughter has certainly been an example of faith, courage and love, to so many people. Heaven indeed is going to be receiving a beautiful young woman. Thank you for sharing her journey, fore it has touched so many hearts and lives. I sincerely pray for Heavenly Father's peace and comfort to be with you and your family today and in the months to come. I can see where Michalla found her courage to face this battle. She had strong examples of it in her family! God bless you... Love, Linda C. Tingey
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