Fast tomorrow

I am fasting tomorrow for Michalla.  I know several family members and ward members are as well.  I ask that anyone that is willing and able to fast, please join us in uniting our faith that Michalla will get better.  The doctors are trying one last thing to help her with the organs that are shutting down and other issues she is having.  It is a long shot but we aren't done fighting yet.

Michalla expressed she is tired for fighting but she isn't ready to die yet. The doctors say within the next few days will be able to tell if the drugs are helping.  These drugs are not without risk.  That is why we had the meeting with the doctors.  But we made a decision that we had to try because without the treatment she would certainly not make it.

As we were explaining to Michalla that she was old enough that she had to decide if she wanted to be on life support and who she wanted to make the decisions for her if she gets to the point she can't decide anymore, she got all sad.  The only thing she said (it is hard for her to talk) was that she was sorry and felt bad she was taking up so much time and energy of everyone's life.

That is so Michalla.  We are talking about her dying and she is apologizing for being a burden to everyone.  She is the most thoughtful person I know.  Just like offering her blanket to me in the ultra sound room, while I was laying by her this morning she wanted to move her pillow because she was so uncomfortable but was worried I wouldn't be comfortable anymore.  Here is a girl that is in more pain than she has ever been in and she is worried my head won't be comfortable.  I just love that about her.  Another sweet thing about Michalla was when they came to bring me the sacrament yesterday, she thought she would be able to take it.  When they didn't pass it to her, tears started rolling down her cheeks because she was so disappointed that she wouldn't be able to take it.  What an awesome example to me!  I hope to be able to feel that longing for the sacrament that she has.

Thank you all for the kind thoughts and prayers that are coming our way.  I am so grateful in times like this that I have a sure testimony in the gospel.  I can't imagine going through this without the knowledge that there is life after we leave this earth.  Without an eternal perspective, I don't think I would be able to go on.  I am so thankful that Michalla is sealed to me.  Yesterday Rich told Michalla "This body isn't you."  That is so true. Michalla is much more than this mortal body she is trapped in.

I love you all.  Thanks for sustaining me when I didn't think I had anything left in me. Your kind words of encouragement are what get me through the day.

    Thanks Heather. When I show Michalla she smiled.